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Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Haven't been blogging lately. Guys, i'm realli ok liao... thought through alot of things for the past few weeks. I'll continue to play pipa no matter wad and strive for the best out of it. So, all of u don hav to worry abt me liao. I'M OK!! HAHA~ but thanks to all of u la..haha.. for consoling me.. lala~

Ok, hlm just ended. i think i'll miss it. It's so fun, playing with all the ppl and under the baton of zhang lie. Although he's strict, but he's good la..haha. Wu bi xia's singing was - GREAT~ She's good man. She can biao until so high.. cool!! haha.. and the two MCs who took up the narrating part, they were great too. Esp the guy, his voice deep deep one, so man la.. i like! HAHAHA!! Idol!! hahaha. Although he's a replacement but he's still good, and he's not bad looking.haha. Omg i cant stop laughing la.hahaha... I think i'm mad liao.hahaha.. ok for now like tat la..hahaha

2:51 PM;

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

After the competition, I'm starting to think whether i'm realli cut out to go into the music path. I don mean to offend anyone, but those who said they wont look down on me, do they realli mean it?? I don noe.. Maybe teacher has half given up on me too. going for lessons is like a torture for me now. Anw, i cant say much here too, in case.... ya maybe im not cut out for this. My ji ben's bad, mentality is bad, performing is bad, confidence is bad, yue gan's bad, everything's bad... xq sae i shldnt be soo sensitive, shldnt think so much, just carry on practising. It's easy to sae, but it's not easy to do it, isnt it?... u noe it too. Now, out of all her students, i'm the last or something, maybe even in sy seating plan i'm the behind one. ah watever la, im alreadi trying my best to block out all those negative thoughts, but i think it takes time. hai try la~~~~

12:42 AM;

Monday, December 11, 2006

Competition can really change a person. It changed me, and it changed how ppl see me as a pipa player. Maybe they'll look down on me and think that my playing sucks like shit. Even my parents starting to look down on me. Yes I noe I played very very badly on the day of comp, but do u have to treat me like this? U mean ppl don make mistakes at all? I did put in alot of effort on this comp, but too bad I didnt play as well as I did during normal times. Anything bad will always happen to me. Y?... Hai.... Michelle is offically dead~

7:44 PM;

Friday, December 08, 2006

Hai... i've let my teacher down. i'm a bad pipa player. i'm sorri...

8:37 PM;