{SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW.}

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Liking someone is really a very tiring and shitty experience. Getting into a relationship is even worse. I'll nv go into relationships at this point of time, so risky.

I have to sae at this point of time I realli dislike u. U shld noe who u are. And it's all those things tat gradually made me dislike u. Y do i have to explain everything to u, even though some things i just cant explain, esp things to do with my feelings. U were very imp to me, but now... maybe u're just not as impt to me as the past. I feel so tired caring for u. Until yesterdae, I realised maybe u don even give a dame whether I care for u or not. Maybe I'm realli of very little significance in ur heart. And I shldn't rely on u too much from now, or it'll cause some things to happen like todae. I'm alreadi very sian diao cause everytime I need u, u're not there.. Isit just coincidence or it's just u cant be bothered?... I dunno... Yes, maybe to u, u'll think tat it's very unfair, since u're always there when I need to talk to someone. But did u realli ever consider how I feel during these times? Ya I'm grateful, but I realli need ur help... hai, say too much, u also wont believe it, since u're alreadi having negative preceptions on me. I just wan to let u noe, if u're realli in need of help, i'll rush down no matter wat to help u. That's how much I care for u, but do u care as much as I care for u?? I don think so. U'll never ever do tat. Confirm~ I shld just stop bothering abt u, and stop caring for u too much, since I wont get the same amount of care tat I've put into u. I actually feel sad for myself. I'm MICHELLE, y did I land myself in this kind of situation? If it were the me in the past, I would just forget abt everything and get on with life as per normal, but y am I getting myself into this shit tat I jolly well noe I'll keep falling deeper and deeper into it?! WHY!!! I hate u for always affecting my thoughts and feelings, I hate u for always being so nice to me, I hate u for lending me a listening ear, I hate u for always cheering me up when I'm feeling down, I hate u for always going out with me when I'm bored, I hate u for landing me in this situation. But, those were the reasons that made me fell deeper into the trap. Y did u even wan to appear in my life?! Without u, I'll be living much happily now. Y did u affect me in every way....! Maybe it's time for me to let go everything, since I noe the outcome wont be something tat I wished for.. I shld let go.... forget.....

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