{SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW.}

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Up till now, I realised tat actually there're realli true friends around me. Those tat lend a listening ear, those tat feel unjust for me in some situations, and those, who're just there to help with anything within their means. Luckily I have these friends who're there for me when I need them. I hate those who claim to be my good friends but whenever I met with a problem, they'll just run away or pretend to be busy with other things. This is where true friends come in. I'm realli thankful tat I have all these friends tat acc me when I've hit a rough patch. THANKS!!!

And now, I don even noe wat kind of world I'm living in. It's full of deceit. At least to me la. I dunno who to believe, or who can I trust. Maybe the environment tat i lived in last time cause me to be wat I am now.Even though my close friends trust me alot, I'm sorry to sae tat cause of my character, I'm still wary of everyone, including both of u. Sorry is all tat I can sae to u now. I noe u both will be sad upon knowing this, but this is wat I wan to tell the both of u. I'm sorry. Maybe time will change everything, but the changes will be very slow. Esp to freaky, I noe I've hurt u many times, but u just endure it without saying anything back at me. I noe u must be feeling very terrible these few daes cause I'm treating u as a punchbag for nth. When u qns me abt y I'm doing this, it's more of 'I dunno how to reply u' than 'I don wanna reply u'.. And it's not tat I'm blaming u for not being able to console me, actually I'm realli very relieved and happy tat u're actually by my side, listening to my complaints, my joy and my woes. I'm realli glad to have u as my close friend. And don be sad tat I don trust u completely like how u do, I'm still trying to change my perception on trusting ppl and believing in them. It's difficult to tell u face to face the things I wan to sae thus I'm blogging it down here. Maybe it'll be easier for u to understand wat I'm thinking. I noe u're very nice to me, and frankly speaking, I'm realli very touched. Esp when I'm realli in desperate need of help u're there to help me. Although I'm always saying stupid things to hurt u, u nv once gave up on this friendship. And deep down inside, I'm realli very happy and touched. Maybe by saying all this now wont help by improving the situation we're in now, but this is wat I've got to sae to u...

And xq, at last we're cleared all the misunderstanding. I don wanna lose a good friend like u. And I hope such cases wont happen again. I hate it. I know u're squashed in between and it's difficult for u to breathe properly until we had to resort to quarrelling which made matters worse. U're my best friend, and I don wan anyone or anything to come between us again. I don like the feeling of quarrelling with my best friend over something insignificant. We shld just forget abt all those bad experiences and carry on with life... thanks for siding me and helping me in tat situation. Although I noe tat case will nv be the same again, but thanks anw!!

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